So POIS robbed a LOT from me. Any chance of happiness between the age of 11 until about 19 I literally was never happy and could not be happy. But now, I get to experience happiness as if it?s a new thing. I?m frustrated at myself for my many failing but at the same time I get the thrill of relearning and having faith in my emotions and thoughts and peace through working myself through the anxiety. I really try and keep a positive outlook. For better or for worse POIS shapes me entirely and probably immensely dictated the course of my life.
I actually just called up an ex (my only serious relationship) and explained to her about POIS. I just didn?t want her to feel bad that I was always miserable and so cold towards her. She told me ?it was such a long time ago? but appreciated that I gave her the call.
You have the wherewithal to overcome the lack of emotion and in some ways I?ll relive my youth with the excitement that I have of new feelings and expressions as an (older) but not that old man!
