I'm a very competitive gamer but when I am in POIS my performance gets hindered greatly and sometimes I don't even have the will to play.
I don't feel that my motor skills suffer in POIS but the overall fatigue and irritability gets to me. Also my reaction time and decision making both feel a bit slower. And I rage a lot more.
When I play with a duo partner I can be a douchebag and they seem to irritate me which is so stupid since before POIS I used to love playing with my friends. ( and I still do when abstaining)
I am very passionate about the game I am playing and have put in around 800hrs into it so you could imagine that playing bad just because I am in POIS mode can be very frustrating.
Have you guys ever had a similiar experience and do you have any recommendations for me?
We all have our own ways of dealing with POIS, and obviously gaming is your refuge. When POIS gets in the way of doing the things you love, it can be discouraging.
A change in gaming focus can potentially help. You are undoubtedly a competitive gamer, but have you considered moving into game creation? It may seem a bit daunting, but there are now many tools available to help u
make a 3D game with little to no coding skills. Platforms like Unity, Godot, or Unreal Engine have tons of guides and resources to get you started. This will allow you to immerse yourself in a gaming environment but with less pressure to be instantly responsive and competitive.
Shifting your focus to game creation instead of high-stress competitive games can also help reduce POIS symptoms. The game creation process itself can be therapeutic and help shift your focus from the fast, stress-inducing moments of competitive play to a slower, more methodical process. You can even channel your POIS experience into game development, creating something truly unique.
Remember that you need to take care of your mental and physical health first and foremost. If you find that gaming, whether playing or creating, is exacerbating your POIS symptoms, it may be worth considering other hobbies that you enjoy. There are tons of communities online where you can find new interests and hobbies that may not affect your POIS as much.