depersonalization

[Guts]

When i get erections i already get depersonalization, i also noticed this happened at night (naturally), i know some people get full blown pois from erections...i get like1/2  pois (lite) but shorter (not a full blown week or more)

Biggest issue is when i have erections  few minutes later i already get psychological issues and mood swings. Basically neurotic behaviour when start being impulsive ans snappy, also i get extreme carbohydrate cravings and am liable to do other dumb shit (expensive spending for example)

I stay celibate for weeks or months...then i usually get neurotic as well because of the sexual repression combined with another health problem (high growth hormone). Eventually i get extremely depressed to the point of suicidal thoughts. I tried relieving myself  by looking at  pictures of woman or masturbation without orgasm...same shit.. i also have a torn ACL and torn elbow joint i can't do any exercises or distractions

I gave up on technology because it distracts me too much, can't handle the stimulation and my back hurt because of pois. When im celibate for weeks i noticed my mind slips into more impulsive thoughts again when im distracted by technology , games and that kind of stuff. Also have been sitting behind computer 24/7 for years because i was completely handicapped, i can't stand using computers. Especially with pois when im neurotic i try escapism and sit behind computer all day.

right now im living with ascesism ..i have no internet at home, no television, phone and stuff. This way i don't fall back into watching porn or do other dumb distractions. Me and my house plants and books.

seriously tho im considering buying a whip and flagallate myself or my d*ck. I managed to stay celibate for many many months by sitting outside in the forest all day reading books, meditating and petting horses and then one day i fucked up because i was off balance by stress of society coupled with pois lite..

How do you guys  deal with the depersonalization...it ****up all my relationships and friendships in life, 9/10 i caitn't even stand talking to people or posting on forums. The nihilism and anhedonia are insane.

This disease is  ****  language managed to get other symptoms/afflictions under control, but its always the ***** pois which bites me in my back.

[Daysleeper]

Hi guts,

Cognitive behavior therapy has helped me a ton.  It's a slow and difficult processs but it has helped me to overcome a lot of the depersonalization.  I've been working on it since about May and have gotten rid a lot of anxiety.

[dizzy]

Cognitive behavior therapy has helped me a ton.  It's a slow and difficult processs but it has helped me to overcome a lot of the depersonalization.  I've been working on it since about May and have gotten rid a lot of anxiety.

Are you doing this from a book, or do you have a therapist?

[Candide]

You must write a book Guts, you are very lucid and intelligent ! Use your pain for make a masterpiece ! You point of view is original thanks to POIS. you can do it !