Hello everyone,
My name is Alan, from Australia and I have had quite the rough battle in my life. I have post nasal drip and asthma but I decided tonight to do some research again about what might be wrong with me because
quite frankly I just can't keep going like it has been for me.
I'm going to do what I have never done before because I feel very shy and scared to let the public or even my parents know or my best friend that what I have is something that I can never explain
and is highly embarrassing. I Have had this hunch for a over a year now that maybe what is wrong with me is something to do with having sex. It's a bit complicated for me to come to this conclusion
after suffering for so long, one would think you would simply figure it out sooner. But with me people would need to understand the full story, so I will explain it so please bear with me.
During high school when i was 17 I had a girlfriend, we become very close. We were fairly sexually active but things went bad in the relationship and this was right around the time when My final exams
were on.. I was a nervous wreak, I could not understand why we had to break up and basically this messed up my study and exams. Around the same time i was always active riding my bmx at the local
skate park, It was a good 20 min ride to the skate park.
One day I had my friend over and my mother cooked a large lunch for us. I ate it all like usual because I could always eat a lot. Like two whole pizza's myself. I was thin, never put weight on either. However
this time straight after I vomited everything up. I had no idea why. The same happened from that day onwards for me for the next week, after a meal I was sick to my stomach. I went to the Doctor
I told him everything, he said I looked normal, I seemed healthy. I went back to my doctor again a few weeks later. Things never changed so I told my Doctor this, I told him everything about how I have
been stressed and feeling depressed about the breakup and being sick. He said i am suffering from depression and told me try taking some medication and advised me to go see a psychologists to talk to
someone.
I thought this does not make any sense, this is not me I am not a person to be depressed and get sick and feel this way. I decided to not take the medication and wait to see if this cleared up.
Things never got better in fact it seemed my problems got much worse. I ended up shaking feeling cold one min hot the next I could not hold food down at all, I knew something was terribly
wrong and my mum was very worried. I ended up in hospital because I was so stressed from being sick so much I was really weak and was a nervous break down. The hospital gave me maxalon to calm
my stomach which worked. I ended up living on that for a long time. Because every time I went to a Doctor nobody could work out what was wrong with me. So now after eating smaller meals
and taking anti acids to try keep food down i became anorexic with an eating disorder. I dreaded every time i had to eat because I knew at that exact same time of the day I would be sicker then
I could imagine to the point I was so scared I would not eat much at all.
This went on for 2 years.. During this time I lost all my friends my girlfriend that i loved more then anything in this world and i felt like i lost myself, People thought I was making things up at some
points and it made me cry often at nights because I knew this was not normal that it was not in my head like the Doctor told me. I use to be happy, many friends, always out and about, life was great until that
one day.
So after the 2 years I decided I had enough of hearing the Doctor tell me what i had So i ordered him to get me to a specialist, i wanted answers, my parents wanted answers, this could not go on any longer!
I saw the specialists and he decided to do a gastroscopy. A camera down my neck to see my stomach. He did a biopsy and found I had H pylori bacteria. It had affected my stomach wall and esophagus very bad
and it was very inflamed and my lower esophageal sphincter (LES) was damaged. I had some pretty heavy medicine to remove this bacteria, the symptoms slowly eased but came back shortly after. I had
revisits with my Doctor and specialist and he said i have whats known as G.O.R.D And that its easy to get the bacteria back again so i had further tests to my surprise proved negative.
At this point I was 21 I really was depressed and should of taken the drugs I was prescribed I realize it was my own fault but I tried to move on and deal with my life the best I could. But it seemed it never
stopped, some days it was worse other times it was ok. It was random I could not figure it out. I had allergy tests done all came back nothing. I seemed to be a bit better when i took anti acid foods
I ended up having bicarb soda mixed up with maple syrup daily to keep my stomach at bay but it has been an uphill struggle a real daily basis of trying to survive. Its been so many years now that I gave up,
I just gave up until lately Things become a lot worse, everyday I am now sick very bad, writing this right now I can barely do it without being sick.
This last year I have thought of something though it seems every time i had masturbated I get all my problems 10x worse, Now I only just read about pois today and it hit me that every single symptom on that
list I have, everything. This really surprised me. I actually broke down reading someones post and had to go for a walk. I feel like I am stupid for not figuring this out sooner. Every time I orgasm soon after I feel
Terrible I feel tired my brain feels hazy my very thoughts are dazed. I have 0 ability to do anything with my life when this hits in. 0 motivation, any work I need to do just shuts down, I just go lay down because
I'm sore tired irritable and depressed I can't even explain it all I just feel so bad Like i want to kill myself I actually have those thoughts often but I'm not that crazy I think that I would do such a thing. But I am
certainlly on a dark path here. I have noticed quite alot about my symptoms that i get often daily.
Headaches
Soreness on body
Red eyes yellowish coloring
red skin on hands often
sweats cold and hot
running nose
feeling sick to my stomach
tiredness
depressed
lack of energy
lack of motivation
shaking
Sore throat
chronic tonsillitis
Feel turned off from woman and anything to do with them after o
anti social
I Need to read up more about POIS obvisouly but i honestly for the first time in 7 years think I have found what is wrong with me, I don't know whether to be happy or sad about this because I can't take this
much more I hate it, it's ruined my life so far.
My first step because I realize it has something to do with orgasm I will stop it. I have never not been without one any week since Ive been 18 I do wonder if anything will clear up after a week of none.
Hope someone finds anything here of interest I will be happy to answer questions or something or looking for help please anybody.
