i tried ritalin for dopamin deficency, at first i felt so wonderfull and normal, the world came to life, music sounded awsome and everything. i would want to conversate, and motivation was great. i felt less of a distach from the world, but after 5 days of taking it, it never worked the same, and it made me feel worse then ever!.
and i notice that the medicine doesent work for me on day one of pois, it only works when i get to a far day without orgasm.
but that wonderfull alive feeling i had from ritalin, not everything was fixed, i was still missing stuff, i think it is more than one nuerotransmitter that is the problem.
i will try to describe how i feel when i get to a far day without pois, to try match this up.
i feel a exitement , a want to do everything, i will think ofdoing something and get a really good thrill about just the thought, or listen to music and words make more sence they come to life, the music comes to life, you have a total different look on life, everything has meaning and is so wonderfull. your not in complete isolation, i wont spend my time away from people, youll want to be around people and conversate. going outside you can feel the wind it feels wonderfull, higher memories and thinking, likeyou get a awsome feeling about everything you think about, words and things have theyre own feelings. and memories that you never thought of for a long time come , those memories are strong. they have a feeling to them. emotions come very strong, i can cry like a baby orget mad pumped up just you are so atached to the worldeverything has a feeling and meaning , i can fall asleep easy cause i feelawsome cuddling in the blankets,it feels good, you feel so good that it is easy to fall asleep. the tv or music can put you to sleep. your hobbies come back , you get imense pleasuredoing hobbies instead of looking at them as a hard thing to do.
in a moment, say im playing a game with the window open, you feel the wind ,on your body it feels good, you get a bit of a memorie from that, and a unique feeling, you feel so relaxed and comfortable in your seat its like awww yea, your mind thinks of wonderfull things and everyhting has a meaning and a specialfeeling to it, you feel imense pleasure in everything , socializing thoughts words, doing things you know your completely alive. its a totally different state of mind, and the funny thing is people , nomal people feel this way everyday, without worrying . they just wake up and have all that and imagine how wonderfull life would be if we figured this pois thing out. this is nuerological, no doubt.
if you guys notice , the more time you go without orgasm n arousil, you feel more n more alive, and if youv gotten very very far say 19 days without orgasm arousil like i did, youll notice how freakin alive you are, and once you have a orgasm , in a split second its all gone, you feel so dull nothing has meaning. life is dull.
