My agonishing case- What happens when you don't take POIS serious

[Allgaeuer]

Hello all,
After a long time I now have finally decided to write down my story because my POIS has become unbearable.
-Phase 1- "How it began"
It all began when I was 13 (now I am 19)years old . Everything was fine with my life and I was doing well in school, I had my friends and it was basically the best time of my life. But at the time of my first orgasm I discovered porn(luckily it was only pictures in the beginning because my parents didn't allow wifi) and became almost instantly addicted to it. That's when I started to feel change but of course I didn't link it to porn back then. I started to feel that something was different with my consciousness and I realized that I became lonelier and felt worse but it couldn't find any explanation for it. I don't remember whether I already felt sick after orgasm back then. My cognitive symptoms have always been the worst part of my POIS and feeling sick developed quite late as I remember. Something remarkably that I remember is that I suddenly wanted to start a sugar free diet and I did that from this point on for over a year. One year after that all developed(summer of 2018) my porn (and masturbation)addiction was worse, my self isolation was worse(in a time where all of my mates got more socially active,I started to withdraw from it ) and I had developed social phobia which I never had before in my life and the problem with my consciousness got really bad. I felt daily like living in a dream. And i had this strange blurry vision I just couldn't explain. It was already too bad to just live with it and I was shocked everyday what has happened with me but I didn't listen to my feeling that it has something to do with porn and masturbation. And so I lived on-not knowing that this hell was just the beginning

[Quantum]

Hello all,
After a long time I now have finally decided to write down my story because my POIS has become unbearable.
-Phase 1- "How it began"
It all began when I was 13 (now I am 19)years old . Everything was fine with my life and I was doing well in school, I had my friends and it was basically the best time of my life. But at the time of my first orgasm I discovered porn(luckily it was only pictures in the beginning because my parents didn't allow wifi) and became almost instantly addicted to it. That's when I started to feel change but of course I didn't link it to porn back then. I started to feel that something was different with my consciousness and I realized that I became lonelier and felt worse but it couldn't find any explanation for it. I don't remember whether I already felt sick after orgasm back then. My cognitive symptoms have always been the worst part of my POIS and feeling sick developed quite late as I remember. Something remarkably that I remember is that I suddenly wanted to start a sugar free diet and I did that from this point on for over a year. One year after that all developed(summer of 2018) my porn (and masturbation)addiction was worse, my self isolation was worse(in a time where all of my mates got more socially active,I started to withdraw from it ) and I had developed social phobia which I never had before in my life and the problem with my consciousness got really bad. I felt daily like living in a dream. And i had this strange blurry vision I just couldn't explain. It was already too bad to just live with it and I was shocked everyday what has happened with me but I didn't listen to my feeling that it has something to do with porn and masturbation. And so I lived on-not knowing that this hell was just the beginning

Hi, Allgaeuer, and welcome to the forum 
Sadly, your story is not unique.  Not all members have a problem with porn, and obviously, not all guys with porn addiction develop a POIS problem - there would be tons of POIS cases, then.   You may have developed some POIS problem anyway, but the porn addiction must have worsened things a lot.
I hope that now that you know, you have reduced the frequency of ejaculations so that your symptoms lessen a bit.   

In case you haven't seen it yet, there is a list of methods found by members that help control or even eliminate POIS symptoms.  Some are very easy and safe to try, like niacin, or antihistamines.   Take a look at https://poiscenter.com/forums/index.php?topic=2338.msg19448#msg19448 .   

[Allgaeuer]

Thank you nfor your reply, quantum. I am trying antihistamines this week and I am not sure about the effect. I feel a bit less ill but It's definitely not the cure for me. But Niacin is a bit complicated for me, which I will explain later.

[Allgaeuer]

-Phase 2- "Life becomes hell"
When my parents decided to install WIFI in our home, that was a turning point for my POIS. Because now I had 24/7 access to porn. So I began to spend most of my free time watching porn and masturbating. In a course of three months or less, I could hardly endure my life without watching porn. I didn't realise that this came from masturbation because I was doing it all the time and just didn't know how it would feel without. My symptoms back then were: chronic Blurry vision, the beginning of my chronic Post-Nasal-Drip (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-nasal_drip), constant feeling of malaise, extreme mood swings, no ability to concentrate, extreme social anxiety, feeling like a different person, no emotion, shock like feeling, extreme fear of eye contact and many other things I don't remember at the moment. I just know that it was like going through hell every day. I would argue with my mother daily because I couldn't control myself and I screamed like an insane person at her. I'm glad today that I never hit her. Panic in the bus on the way to school. Fear of eye contact with teachers and people except my friends. That was the point where I decided: Something has to change! That's when I decidet to stop watching porn.

[Quantum]

Hi, Allgaheuer,

It was a good decision for your health to stop watching porn.  Porn and POIS is a deadly mix.

If antihistamines help you a bit, you can keep them in your anti-POIS toolbox, and then, add something else that will also help, and develop a method with a mix of effective substances.

If niacin cannot be tried for you, there are other easy methods to try, like fenugreek and garlic. 

Vitamin D, at 2000 ui a day, is also a good addition unless you live in a very sunny place, like California or Jamaica    Vitamin D alone is not enough to entirely control POIS symptoms, but it helps in diminishing them.   

With POIS, there is rarely one silver bullet - it's better to use many "copper" bullets together !

[xeon]

Have you checked your boron levels? Or tried supplelenting with a boron supplement (NOT the boric acid sold for cockroaches!)?

[Allgaeuer]

-Phase 3- "Hope"
-When I stopped watching porn I felt better even after few days of abstinence
-But when I stumbled across NoFap, it sounded like the chance for me to heal
-But because I was still so addicted NoFap just led to harder porn relapses
-so after a huge, terrible feeling relapse I decided just to crack down on porn
-It was during lockdown and it was great: motivationb for school, enjoying the small things in life and for the first time real sexual desire ( what I felt before was just the addiction)
-But I realized that it wasn't enough because I still felt awful often. So I stopped masturbating. And it was crazy.
-This numbness in my head diminished and I could think again and be creative( I used to be the best in my class in the latin language before POIS), I felt emotionally calm, I wanted to live, I began to develop normal teenage desires, my vision got better, that dream-like mental state disappeared, the congested nose got clearer and clearer... That developed for 15-20 days. Then after roughly three weeks  I had a phase where I experienced like a "high" where I would experience that mental clearness and happiness 10 times more than the days before and after these terrible years that felt really amazing. But when I thought that it would stay like this it got worse again but not as bad as normal Pois. Then after two weeks I had a high again. Then I felt worse and so it went from up and down more and more to my normal state. So 6 weeks after my last orgasm I felt 75 percent normal but I still felt slower in my head and my social phobia was still there and my vision was still strange and blurry. Then one day in school ( I was at the depressed phase at the moment) there was this tingling from my spine into my head and then it was all there again: my vision, my personality and my intelligence. It was like entering a different dimension. But the right one I had missed for so long. I can't decribe that feeling properly, to be honest. It was three years ago and I still recall it as if it was yesterday. I made it! After 7 weeks of no orgasm, I felt normal for the first time since three years. But... It didn't last long. After 15 minutes that mental state went away again and I felt as before, but I was sure that it would come back soon and I just had to carry on for some time until I was completely cured. So...Why Am I here?

Well - I made a terrible mistake: A few days after that incredible moment,(felt pretty good, like 75 % of myself), I decided to try smoking. There isn't a special reason for that. I think I just felt like a normal teenager at that point and wanted to try things out (the only time of my youth when I felt like other teenagers). That cigarette was the worst idea of my life. After I've done that, I felt as if I had a huge POIS setback. The worst I've ever had. I don't remember whether my physical symptoms got worse but I know that I felt as if a part of my brain had been ripped off for some days. It was the worst feeling I've ever had. I realized that I had to begin again with my abstinence but I didn't know back then that everything had changed from that point. I didn't realize that POIS just has really started for me

[Warrior]

Well - I made a terrible mistake: A few days after that incredible moment,(felt pretty good, like 75 % of myself), I decided to try smoking. There isn't a special reason for that. I think I just felt like a normal teenager at that point and wanted to try things out (the only time of my youth when I felt like other teenagers). That cigarette was the worst idea of my life. After I've done that, I felt as if I had a huge POIS setback. The worst I've ever had. I don't remember whether my physical symptoms got worse but I know that I felt as if a part of my brain had been ripped off for some days. It was the worst feeling I've ever had. I realized that I had to begin again with my abstinence but I didn't know back then that everything had changed from that point. I didn't realize that POIS just has really started for me

You may have some kind of sensitivity to smoking, as part of your POIS condition. I have nasty food sensitivities tied to my POIS, and one thing I notice is that whenever I smoke weed my mind gets absolutely obliterated. For many years I was able to smoke completely fine, until I got POIS. I wonder if anyone else around here can relate to changes in getting high & the onset of POIS symptoms?