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Observing my self and test on visual sexual arousal
« on: October 20, 2018, 12:57:55 PM »
One more test for me about PORN.

Watching porn ewan only on 10-20 min complitly change how my ayes look,
taht ayes lokk i cant see on people on the streat.
This patern didnt changed after years of abstinence.

From my shyning atractiwe ayes , they became wery quickly to
"broken flowers" look, lokk like zoombe , you can see it on my awatar.

I tested abstinence from porn first one moonth, then 3, then 4-5 years.

Boliwed or not, after only 10 min of wathing porn my ayes tourn like that.
Ewan after years and years of abstinence from por.
(this is withouth eyaculation). With eyculation pois is hited, and is 20 times worse.
Cant explane why this is hapening-probbly something is exesiwe(abnormall)
puled in my blod stream from my gladns and that destroy me.

I found this about endorphins and opioid receptors.

https://science.howstuffworks.com/life/inside-the-mind/emotions/endorphins1.htm

Endorphins may also be responsible for heightened states of rage or anxiety. If your endorphins overdo their job or the hypothalamus misreads the endorphin cue, you could be flooded with "fight-or-flight" hormones at the slightest hint of trouble or worry.


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Re: Pornography and sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #1 on: October 20, 2018, 02:27:05 PM »
What helps me to make the eyes looking more expressive is to 1. don't use porn, 2. don't sink into a state of introversion, and 3. regularly meditate, concentrating on increasing expression on the face (as if you're talking to someone, or e.g. to a dog, trying to convince them of doing something in your most expressive way), 4. release muscle tension in forehead and jaw.

During meditation, the feeling you are looking for is that your "self" is moving from the back of your head to the front of your head, between your eyes.

I know it sounds vague, but for me it works.

A question you should ask yourself is: does my expression improve when I'm socializing for extended periods (e.g. a weekend with friends)?
Male, INTJ. POIS symptoms: red eyes, ear-pain, anxiety, speech problems, pale/ugly skin, stiff neck, double chin, tinnitus, light sensitivity. POIS even after stimulation without O.

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Re: Pornography and sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #2 on: October 20, 2018, 03:52:29 PM »
I think it shows that mind could very powerful.  I mean this story would sound nonsense to anyone just about any sane person, but I actually believe you.  I have started believing that POIS starts with a child being scared shit of ejaculation and just not knowing what the heck is going on with their body.  I think it re-wires a person's CNS and PNS so much so that we start to physically experience the symptoms we do.  These distorted CNS/PNS responses become so ingrained that we begin to permanently experience in real all these symptoms we do.  I think it would help during childhood, we get proper sexual education - first and foremost that sex is not bad.  But now that the damage is there (and sexual re-education is not of any benefit), how do we reverse it? 

Can Mushrooms help reverse these changes?   
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Pois symptoms: Peripheral (Skin: Urticaria, dryness, pale blotchy skin), Exasperation of: [Nerve weakness, Muscle weakness + Mental (CNS: Brain Fog, Irritation, Isolation, Speech lethargy, Anxiety)].
Other conditions: ASD, ADD, GA

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Re: Pornography and sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #3 on: October 20, 2018, 04:45:02 PM »
Swell i agree with you about most things you sead, For exemple my first eyaculation
hawe blod in semen, and i didn know what eyculation is eidher, and i scared like
sheat in that time, i had parents but couldnt tell them, i was alone.

But i owercame that like eny awerage kid and knowing later my sexuality.
I hawe wery hard chieldhood, but when i look what people go tru theirs lifes
all ower the world , my bad childhood  was  "small beby".


What is intresting, that almoust the same  patern on my face and ayes change i
notice also on wery hot , i mean extreme hot summer.
My face change so bad that i look 5 to 8 years older, the look is like somewone
tortured me(folowed cronic fatigue...etc).

The soon as i go to some fresh room an go some rest to restore my strenth ,
my face and ayes begin to recowering wery fast.

Face from porn (only 10 min neded to wach),
need about one day to recower(sleaping not helping).

The face and ayes from eyculation(pois hitedd hard, congnitive , emotions, and psyschialy) , need three to sewen days to recower.
(some times pois can damaged me so hard that i need  moonths for recower).

Then if i go in abstinanting to long(one or two moonths) , my body go in dystonia,
like my body is slyghtly disconected from organs.
Not feeling of breath etc...

Then after i eyaculate, sex, i can fell my breth again , i can feell my body again,
i start breathing, i feell relefe from relese sexual tenzion, but then POIS torture
begining.



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Re: Pornography and sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #4 on: October 25, 2018, 08:43:02 PM »
I hate POIS so much, it belies logic.  When I found this forum, I thought finally I'll get some solution, but here we are, step 1 on a staircase with 100 floors to go.  Still glad to know that there are people out that understand it.
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Pois symptoms: Peripheral (Skin: Urticaria, dryness, pale blotchy skin), Exasperation of: [Nerve weakness, Muscle weakness + Mental (CNS: Brain Fog, Irritation, Isolation, Speech lethargy, Anxiety)].
Other conditions: ASD, ADD, GA

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Re: Pornography and sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #5 on: January 01, 2019, 06:31:46 AM »
I do testing again. I want to notice how my body react in fases.

Visual stimulation in abstinecne fase 30 days,
30min stimulation on perpes, no masturb, no ejaculation-
this stimulation lead me to my ayes change , inflamation,
in 10 -15 min of visual stimuly, after 30 minute finished,
no O no mastrb.. my ayes is inflamed , an noticed litle soaked.
The neks day in the morning after sleap, the ayes are in the
worse condition, soaked , face is changed , my mucule on face is
losed, look complitly diferent on face, the body dint recover, and i am in
extreme brain fog, in weak body state, i can,t function
normaly, the body is tucked in this state and no mather of what i do
there is no change and need to four days to my ayes and face
looks normal again--- And this is the fase where small amount
of ESSPRESO COFEE  come back my brain from complitly
stuked condition in 10 min only(normaly i am cofee intolerant)
but in this fase is life safer. Take after eat and small amoutn to
escape crash later. This is no cure but help to my brain and body work again.
I cant figure out what is in the  espreso cofee to help me in this
fases, is it cafeic acid and react on something in my stomach,
is it niacin, is it reising my andrenaline from cofein i dont know,
anodher thig is that coffe mybe react on acethylcholeine and help
nerwes to fire.

My first suspision on this is that exces histamine cerate all this.


Fase two- abstinence from all sexual actiwity one moonth,
Did O with no visual stimulation, my ayes look change next
day , brain fog, saggy lose facial change again, tired body...
BUTT this last only one day, my face looks normal again in
two days.
BUUT... now odher part of pois kicked in, body inflamation,
lower back inflamationn and small knee inflamation,
stiffed muscules, astma like anaplaxses second and trhth day
tirednes, iritability, weaknes, testicle paain etc...
Lower back pain some time last 7 days to recower.

In this second fase where abstinence is one or two moonts,
i can precisly (see,notice) reaction during eyaculation
in seminal tubes, specialy in bleder part.
It is burning senzation, and from there reaction begining,
imunitiy is kicked and pois cascade start.


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Observing my self and test on visual sexual arousal
« Reply #6 on: January 02, 2019, 03:13:46 PM »
I start observing myself and notice that  from preeyculate doesnt
lead me to severe pois symptomes like eyaculation, for this in my case
is resposamble arosaul, in arosaul we hawe precum and from light
arosaul light symptomes.
Visual arosaul make my body to produce extreme coctail of
cemicals and reactions.  I started observe myself, watching
exytment video for 30min, no O , no M, then one time i
arosaul as much as i can to see how that ipmact my body,
i mean facial change , ayes change etc, then compared
the same test 30 min watching and arosaul but in all that
30 min i tray to not exyted about sexual content , but no
you cant fool the brain and body, my body again produce
such a cocteil that my ayes are inflamed and cascade
of symptomes withouth O are the same.
So i started to resarching, what cemicals and
reaction in my body can induce that,
started from chatecholamines- and try to found link
whot can trigerr autoimunity and neuroautoiminity etc..
https://www.sciencedirect.com/topics/agricultural-and-biological-sciences/catecholamine
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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #7 on: January 02, 2019, 03:26:54 PM »
Well HOP, we can easily predict the mediators that are involved in POIS, the biggest problem is knowing how to inhibit them. When anti-histamines and NSAID don't work it seems that our only hope are corticosteroids.

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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #8 on: January 02, 2019, 04:34:09 PM »
Well, yeah but what execly mediators togedher triger all this in us?
Then if know exact what work wrong , the work on repair.
As much as i can observe myself, this illnes is systematic and allredy
underlying in me.
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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #9 on: January 02, 2019, 06:47:06 PM »
Well, yeah but what execly mediators togedher triger all this in us?
Then if know exact what work wrong , the work on repair.
As much as i can observe myself, this illnes is systematic and allredy
underlying in me.
Well, if you do tests that would be better. For example Muon has th1/th2 test which shows exactly what types of Cytokines are elevated in him. If POIS was a form of MCAS then I'd imagine it's an elevation of PgD2, histamines, leukotreine, Tryptase, 11-beta-PgF2a, IL-4, etc.

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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look!!!
« Reply #10 on: January 04, 2019, 06:26:22 PM »
I think that is choline in espreso COFFE( tipe of choline in cofee) in sinergy
with cofein responsibile to transform my body and mind
from dying felling to complitly diferent person next 6-7 hours.

Tested soya lecitin , not helped , egs to not helped.
I think that tiype of choline is importand , because
some people tested alfa GPC, thats brain bioavailability choline
and heped a lot. There cold be genetics stuck of choline patways,
andgut isues. I will post one nice link later.
https://poiscenter.com/forums/index.php?topic=2616.msg22843#msg22843

Cofee is cholinestrase inhibitor...

How cofee helped some MG patients:
https://www.neurotalk.org/myasthenia-gravis/185755-caffeine-mg.html

Choline functions in detail:
https://lpi.oregonstate.edu/mic/other-nutrients/choline#function

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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look cofee help!!!
« Reply #11 on: January 06, 2019, 07:03:40 PM »
Tested espreso cofee after sex wih woman.
Morning, had sex , half hour later i hury to my cofe shoop where i know
esspreso is most helpfull for me(not all the same ),
i ordered my faworite short , drinked with no sugar, and gess what, 40%
lees pois, no sewere back pain next 3-4 days ...
less faciall change, sagy face, less ayes change..less MG symptomes ...
unflcknbelevable :-X

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J75enyWdbBM

Now i discovered that is cafeic acid tipe of polyphenol!!!
So meny benefits(posible sinergy with choline)
Antioxidant, antivirall, antimicrobiall, anticancer, antiinflamatory....

http://www.enzolifesciences.com/ALX-270-231/caffeic-acid/

https://pubchem.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/compound/caffeic_acid

Note , if you sewere damaged from pois, nerwes on edge,
do not play with large amounts of espreso cofee,
espesualy on empty stomach( i am cofeine intolerant),
so if you in conditon like i am decsribed , this can lead in
wery unconfordable panic atacs!


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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look cofee help!!!
« Reply #12 on: January 21, 2019, 11:16:46 AM »
HOD, when does the effect of coffee kicks in after intake?
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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look cofee help!!!
« Reply #13 on: January 21, 2019, 11:24:06 AM »


HOD reversed!


« Last Edit: January 21, 2019, 11:26:02 AM by demografx »
10 years of significant POIS-reduction, treatment consisting of daily (365 days/year) testosterone patches.

TRT must be checked out carefully with your doctor due to fertility, cardiac and other risks.

40+ years of severe 4-days-POIS, married, raised a family, started/ran a business

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« Reply #14 on: January 21, 2019, 11:50:33 AM »

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10 years of significant POIS-reduction, treatment consisting of daily (365 days/year) testosterone patches.

TRT must be checked out carefully with your doctor due to fertility, cardiac and other risks.

40+ years of severe 4-days-POIS, married, raised a family, started/ran a business

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Re: Visual sexual exitment change my ayes look cofee help!!!
« Reply #16 on: January 21, 2019, 03:24:47 PM »
HOD, when does the effect of coffee kicks in after intake?

Muon, that is strong presure cooked cofee, espreso, cofeine from it kicked in reall
fast, fwew minutes i can fell that, then i can fell those acid in cofee hawe influence
in my stomach, after 10, 15 min my cronic congested nouse open,
there polyphelnols  act , antioxidant.
This is only useful after O,E, when my body shouting down and pois cascade start.
So ,there are days , pois days, that nothing can bring my body from hawines,
tirednes, and sewere brain fog, those day, i  need sometimes 10 hours to
my body get out from this state, and there espreso cofe helping a lot,
in only half hour suscesifuly pulled my body and mynd from dying
condition to live feling condition.
Out of pois, i hawe crash from cofee and cofeine(sweere intolerance),
and heart palpilations, anxiety etc...

HOD after his cup of coffee:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNS4t5UCBfI
;D
My face look like this after O, but more like bad ass x10 look.
Imagine me in grocery store with face like this and say to a girl
who work there-HI  ;D she amidiatly wana call the caps , yust on my HI to
her, she shaked and scared like shxt... ;D .
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Re: Observing my self test on visual sexual arousal
« Reply #17 on: November 06, 2019, 08:23:19 PM »
Testing again.
After 3.5 monnths in hard mode apstinence.

I tested this in relaxed, not stresed state, checked my breathing and ewerything relaxed during test.
I do visal sexual arousal on  max
on , on purpose, to the point of feeling small pre ejaculating muscule yerks.

After 20 min visual sexual arousal
i get 40% pois (my body and brain are in inflamed weak pois state).
After that i get buzzing tinitus
and pois 40% for 1 to 2 days.

So hi sexual arosoul induce
pois in my case,
no masturbation in this test,
no ejaculation.
Arosual imidiatly kick some toxic chemichals wich induce pois in me.
If i did ejaculate after  this,
it will induce full blown pois in me.
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« Reply #18 on: November 07, 2019, 05:59:17 AM »
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Arosual imidiatly kick some toxic chemichals wich induce pois in me.

I wonder if one day some research team would test samples from our precum and our seminal fluid and do a full screening test to see what it contains (maybe "toxic chemicals", as you say), in comparison with precum and seminal fluid from healthy subjects.

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« Reply #19 on: November 07, 2019, 07:24:10 AM »
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Arosual imidiatly kick some toxic chemichals wich induce pois in me.

I wonder if one day some research team would test samples from our precum and our seminal fluid and do a full screening test to see what it contains (maybe "toxic chemicals", as you say), in comparison with precum and seminal fluid from healthy subjects.

I'm thinking about:

1) Genitourinary mast cells being hyperresponsive for some obscure reason.

2) Or these cells or T-cells responding to other antigens which show up in semen (Food, pets antigens etc)

3) Or they (or other mast cells in the body like the brain) respond to other changes in the body such as (neuro)hormones.
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