I've wrote on this website more, although long time ago. I'm a graduate of the psychology university in Romania and my english could be better (therefore my grammatical mistakes are not intentional).
22 and fifhting pois since the age of 18. I'm was one of the best in my university class, very witty and on point with my arguments even when speaking to the teachers at the exams. If I were to tell all my colleagues and teachers that I have pois (I've told a few but probably didn't take it serious-their immediate reaction and the reactions they have had after a while when retalking with them about the problem were almost not there...It was like I told them:
-Hey,you know, ummmmm, the weather in Nigeria on the 4th of January 1956 was amazing!
-Cool mate.
So, if I were to tell them they would either not take it serious and forget about this or be shocked.
But this comes at a huge price:
1) The days I masturbate I didn't go to university (amazing brain fog,social anxiety,couldn't find the right words if the professor would have asked me something
2)Don't have a girlfriend for 4 years although I'm good looking and girls enjoy my company.
3)No friends,I don't go out
4) I stay home and play chess,read books,do IQ tests and mental difficult tasks so when I get into pois with my trained brain I don't seem so stupid.Basically,I try to compensate the stupidity I have in pois.
7-8 days until I am fully recuperated from an O and I am at full capacity again. Then I resist the urges 1 more week and then...So 1/2 of a month I'm not myself.My whole personality changes. That's 1/2 of a year.
The good part is I regain all my forces(maybe,I've can't remember the mental and physical states I've been before pois so can't compare...Maybe I'm never at 100 %) if I don't O and I don't get aroused (probably the fast dopamine peaks caused by felling pleasure causes almost instant brain fog). But the cost is huge:I run away from sexual stimuli therefore I'm usually frustrated and full of aggressive behavior and always have to control myself,never fully relaxed,always need to be aware of how I feel.
I'm of course grateful I can recuperate-some of the members of our community seem to be in a constant brain fog.
I've watched a movie recently: concussion(2015). The story revolves around a medic who has found a new illness cause by american football collisions- chronic traumatic encephalopathy. Watch the movie and then answer the poll.
It is possible that this pois exists for a long time but nobody wants to find a cure because:
-porn is the strongest industry (above movies and video games or youtube) with the biggest earnings
-the tendency to insert sexualized themes into every aspect of the human activity
-making people more stupid is actually a tool from population control
You know how much money they will lose if people find pot that all this stuff can harm them? Trillions and nobody wants to lose money.
Now before you say I've forgot to take my daily Zoloft dose or ask me what drugs I'm using remember how chronic traumatic encephalopathy was discovered
a) there were no signs of Alzheimer disease
b)no trauma seen on the EEG scan
c)nuclear magnetic resonance analysis look alright
d)structurally the brain was intact with normal levels of grey matter
Even if the footballer had illusions,depression,left his family and decided to leave on his own as a homeless man,pulled out his teeth and glued them back the doctors thought he died of a simple heart attack and there was nothing strange about his death.
DOCTORS DON'T CARE ABOUT SYMPTOMS UNLESS THOSE SYMPTOMS ARE EXPLAINED BY THE INFORMATION THEY HAD STUDIED.
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